This week: Changing moments. This last 2 weeks I put a plan into action to get a job, to move from freelance work to a office job, mainly to combine my passion for design, storytelling and digital experiences.
Looking through projects from the last 15+ years (with over 10TB on files with images, designs, videos, docs) and organizing them, writing about them, and building my website. Or really, redesigning it with custom code rather than using a platform that was limiting me, so it could hold all the multidisciplinary projects I’ve been working on for my entire professional life.
(check out my portfolio site here)
I sit and thought a lot, and design a lot, searching for my brand tone, for a cohesive message to express capturing al the things i do and believe in (and despite how that could sound, I had so much fun!)
It was a great moment of sitting with the feeling I sometimes have of not having done much, and the dissonance of seeing the sheer number of projects I’ve actually been involved in. Insights for reflection.
Even the process of putting together a resume… I feel there’s something there. In the mix of presenting yourself, it can force us into a spiral of self-doubt. But if I sit with the feeling rather than trying to negate it (or, worse, trying to act on it), then after a little while the feeling dissipates and clarity comes in. I realize it’s just a belief I used to hold so strongly for a while: that it’s never enough. And I understand now that perfection is impossible but that doesn’t mean I can’t strive for excellence. I know myself. I know when I can stretch, and when my body is telling me this is going to be too much: wait a second. And when I don’t listen — oh boy — I know we’re in trouble.
So knowing that, even the moments when I sit for just a few seconds give me so much insight and information, sometimes contradicting the beliefs I also held about my body, or about not being able to trust myself, or not knowing whether I can do it on my own. The more space I have internally, the more I feel I can give.
This week I also finished writing what was going to be an essay and ended up as a free-form poem for the New York Furry Review. So excited for the 2nd edition.
Went to Six Flags and had so much fun, specially being my 2nd time ever in one, I feel i changed my relationship with fear. I like to feel fear, specially by design. Fear is nice.
Went with Masa for a walk and chill to the park.
Spent a lot of time from the balcony working with Oliver
Until the next trace :)