this week: coming out of the cocoon.
on silliness and finding my voice
exploring being more silly. clowning perhaps? or… i guess rather than exploring being more silly, i’m exploring tapping into myself and expressing my voice more. and it seems that part of my voice is very very very silly (and i love that muahaha)
i come out of my cacoon, exploring and enjoying my silliness.
on putting myself first
since the moment i start realizing that the priorities can change (on one of my last therapy sessions) > others first to me first — and if i put myself first (like how they say on airplanes, put the oxygen mask first before helping others), everything shifts. I was so so scared of become “egocentric” and actually it start having an opposite effect. I can help others and hold space for others in a way more effective, easy and sustainable way than before. i’m still working on how i hold other people’s reactions. still don’t know what to do sometimes with emotions i see or perceive in others. i feel sometimes i still care too much about others validating me first before i can just… be. So still some open wounds and old open tabs running in the back of the head.
I kind of know that feeling is not natural. it’s like a part of me looking for validation. And that usually doesn’t bring good things. When i open myself, when i channel something more vibrating with my body, let the emotions in and out, flow, and observe (more like a mindfulness practice), things tend to flow and connections with people become so much easier.
- specially thanks to Mao for being around and her cat energy always. 💛
- i had the tremendous pleasure of getting to know nausicaä more. What a beautiful soul. extremely smart, sensitive, and so creative! Visit her site and you’ll find the most amazing rabbit holes of projects, ideas and interests.
things i’m building
- decided i want to start a radio station, but baby steps. so pretty soon i’ll start a radio show, as a test, an exploration and a way to take the first steps.
- last week, almost out of the blue, decide to started freaks.town, a place to connect, make/publish events, connect other gardens, maybe even stream a radio show. a corner of the internet for us, the weirdos.
- working on custom orders for tetherbound and started testing ideas and diagrams with Seezy for our modular system. Can’t wait to share more!
the cocoon cracking open
met so many awesome people last weekend on hyperactivity’26. most of them live in NY or surrounding areas. finding community, and removing so much of the shame, of the boxes i was living inside…
the work on taking care of myself, journaling everyday, 7 years in therapy, practicing EMDR for healing and reprocessing… it’s showing.
i was so so scared of envy that i would put myself last. and now it’s time to flower, to co-create, to align my values.
The Neighborhood page is updated with new friends gardens, personal sites and places to go deep in the weeds of their fascinating interests.
on quitting the feed
this week i finally quit social media and turned off all notifications from my phone. i got so so so tired of it. 5 days in without social media on my phone and…
- Nothing catastophic happen
- A blurst of energy, creativity and way less distraction come in full force, and having so much time free now. Even i got some moments of being bored, and i love it.
a time to start sharing
VALUES. what if i do a workshop on values design? on digital gardens? on so many topics i’m so so excited to explore, to teach, to learn, to share.
- started the idea of making a workshop on digital gardens: to hold space for others to make their own gardens and their own custom sites. stay tuned!
- also started reviewing my Values and some tools i’ve been using for projects and ideas, to determine where to spend my time. more like a compass. or multiple compasses — a check-in to remember where i decided to be heading. more on that soon!
See you around!
Mocheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee